My Love For Food

I am in love with food. There isn't much that I won't eat. I eat when I am stressed or depressed and I eat when I am happy and content.  It's been an ongoing battle for me since I was just a little girl.

Most of my adult life I have been overweight and lately I am at my most unhealthy. I'm actually pretty scared about it. Things are happening to me that prove to me just how bad it is.

Last week I went for a walk with Rusty in the park and the next morning I was in so much pain. I thought I had fractured my foot. X-ray showed only inflammed and swollen tissue.

This week I am battling the edema in my legs. The pitting is gross. I am very sensitive to sodium. I'm also just feeling really tired and sick to my stomach.

I know what I need to do. I used to have a personal trainer. It's just getting started. I just really have No desire to do anything. I get home from work and I just want to sleep.The insanity has to stop!

I know that a lot of my issues are my depression.  It is constantly in control of my thoughts, actions and behaviors.  I thought I had finally found something that worked but the insurance rejected the prescription and I can't afford paying over $100 per month to continue on them.  I hope that going back to what I was taking before won't set me back any. I have been feeling better the last couple of weeks.

This is definitely something I should be giving to God. I know that he is in control and will guide me through but it's so hard letting go.

Please pray that I will find my strength in God and will overcome all of this. It is much appreciated.

Here are the the lyrics to a song that we sang at church Sunday and I truly believe He is my Healer.

You hold my every moment.
You calm my raging seas.
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease.

I trust in You.
I trust in You.

I believe You're my Healer.
I believe You are all I need.
I believe You're my Portion.
I believe You're more than enough for me.
Jesus You're all I need.

Nothing is impossible for You. Nothing is impossible for You. Nothing is impossible for You.
You hold my world in Your hands

One more blessing

I got a new car!!!!!!!!!  It's gently used but I love it. I have wanted a Scion Xb since they came out and now I finally have one.

I hadn't planned on buying one this close to buying my house but I really didn't have a choice.  The car I have been driving has had the check engine light on for well over a week now. The hydrolic pump is not working.  I don't have the money to replace it and there is a chance it is the one behind the transmission. That will cost a fortune.

The car really isn't mine. Mom and dad let me borrow it when my own car was totaled a year ago. Well I was gonna buy it from them but this will lead to a whole other story about me. Let's just say that I was way in debt and was trying to get myself back on my feet and in this house.  So since I couldn't afford to buy it from them and fix it I went on the car hunt.

God has truly blessed me this last year. I have a good job and I love the people I work with. I am actually appreciated there which I can't say I was at my old job. I have a house that is perfect for me and I love it. I now have an awesome car.  I have my babies back at home with me...my pets. And let's not forget that I live less than 10 min from my sister and her family. This is something I have wanted for several years.

I am so thankful that God doesn't forget about you when you become lost.  He leads you back to where you belong.  You just have to find him again and listen.

One day I will share my journey from the last two years but it will take a while to write and again I am up when I should be sleeping.

Here are some pics of my new ride.

Long Overdue

Wow! So, I totally had a lot happen since I wanted to start this blog.  Now I am officially starting.  I have a new computer and I have my Internet all set up.  It is really late right now so I won't be able to update you all with life but I plan to tomorrow night.  One major thing that has happened recently is the purchase of my house.  I love my 1940-built house.  So much character.  Dad has done a lot for me since I moved in a month ago and it looks great!  I'll post some pics once I get some taken.  I have before pics from the previous owner so everyone can see the difference.  The pics here are just of the front of the house.  Before the shutters were black and the front door was just a wood door.  Now the shutters, front door, garage door and side door and my back door are all kelly green which matches my living room walls.  Yes, when you see the pics of my house, you will realize how much I love green.  I have always loved green; different shades at different ages but it's always been green.  Well, I'm not a fan of hunter green but all other shades.  My taste is definitely different from the previous owners.  Course, the truth be known, they just didn't like the house and didn't do anything with it.  Anyway, since it is 3AM, I will be signing off until tomorrow night.  Can't wait to fill these pages with my thoughts, hopes, rants, raves and life events.  Hope you all enjoy!  God Bless!

My First Blog

So today I decided it was time to daily inform the world of my exciting life.
My name is Catherine and I'm a 31 year old single female in Jackson, Mo. I am a sonographer at an OB/GYN office and I love my job. I used to be a funeral director/embalmer but due to not finding employment I had to find a new career path. I was disappointed at first but once I got my first job at a hospital as a sonographer I was so happy.&tbsp; My job allows me to get to know my patients and form bonds with them. Now more so than when working at the hospital. There is just something about being an important part of everyone's pregnancies. I love it!
I am currently living. With my sister and her family until I am able to buy a house which today I learned could be sooner. I love my niece and nephews. They are my world and I spoil them as much as I can.
I am a christian and go to church.  I am an active member of the choir and I enjoy time with my life group. This church came at just the right time. My life was a mess and I had just moved here to start over and be near my family. I'm sure I will get into all that at some point. But I love the friends I have made at my church and so grateful God led me here but I do miss my home church.  My heart is and always be there.

I love to sing and have been since I was able to talk (or before according to mom).  I have been in groups and choirs most of life. Always wanted to sing professionally but was too chicken to do it. If there is a scary movie I haven't seen I will some day. Absolutely love them. I thank mom for that because she let me watch the Freddy movies when I was 7. Yeah pretty young but I'm not warped. I love reading as well. Mainly horror and suspense but I venture out there sometimes. I have to admit that I do love the Twilight books.  I'm usually rummaging through my dad's books and "borrowing" his. Well this is all I can think of for now. I am sitting in anticipation waiting for the Casting Crowns/Sanctuary Real concert.  TTYL, Cat